What’s the Worst Criticism You’ve Ever Received?

In light of my recent reviews and look backs on job interviews and the like, I would like to share my experiences about the question above.

Initially, it came to my mind that I have never been criticized enough about my physical appearance. Yes, yes; I am fat, I have super chubby cheeks, I have really flabby arms, large legs, bulging tummy and other what-nots. I know I have been judged by the way I look, the way I dress, and even the way I speak and relate with other people. However, I realized these things don’t really bother me. I accept all of these things as fact. Given that, I still hope people to not expect from me to hide all these fats in layers and layers of insecurities. I discovered that it’s a big deal among a lot of people that I like wearing fitted clothes that are on the sexy side. I wear a bikini when I go swimming, I swear skirts and plunging blouses and dresses and super high heels, and despite all the jeering hoots I get – I don’t care. At the end of the day, I’m not the one who is afraid and ashamed of what I have to offer the world. I have a brain in my head, and common sense to boot. I may have to make an extra effort to be funny, but I do okay. And most importantly, I may want to lose more than a few inches off my waist, I am happy. I put importance on looking presentable, but don’t expect me to dress according to people’s standards of how someone of my weight bracket to dress like. I would do what I want to do – within respectable limits, of course! – and hope that people would be happier about what they were blessed with. Because in the long run, happier people are more effective in making things happen for them compared to those with low self esteem, and those who are simply miserable.

Going back, the worst criticism I have ever received would have to be about my working habits. It was my dad who pointed me to that flaw: that I always start slow, and therefore I have a hard time catching up to reach the top. He told me it’s all about my tendency to be lazy, especially since I am used to the good life, I don’t expect myself to work as hard as other people who works and studies to make ends meet for their families. Moreover, I easily get sidetracked – especially when my expectations are not met and I get frustrated about a lot of things that don’t come together. I have to admit, this is true. It stung, but thank goodness I’m not the kind of person who would take critiques personally against the critic. After I verified this flaw, I know I have to at least try and fix it. There’s no shortage of blind courage from where I’m standing, but self motivation can only do so much. I think this is one of the major factors why I finally decided to leave my first job. I’m still lazy, and I’m still always late – it’s a struggle but I am going to fight it and correct this flaw and become a better person afterwards.

Long Time No Post! :)

Hello again! The last time I made a post was last month pa! Crazy!

Well, I have really nothing important to share but for this quote I recently read:

Everyone of us is losing something precious to us. Lost opportunities, lost possibilities, feelings we can never get back again. That’s part of what it means to be alive. But inside our heads—at least that’s where I imagine it—there’s a little room where we store those memories. A room like the stacks in this library. And to understand the workings of our own heart we have to keep on making new reference cards. We have to dust things off every once in a while, let in fresh air, change the water in the flower vases. In other words, you’ll live forever in your own little private library. Haruki Marukami

That’s part of what it means to be alive.

 

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I’m back!

It has been a tough couple of weeks for me. Work has been crazy, and I’ve been out and about for a few nights in a row with the best friends. And while so many things are happening in my life, I never had the inspiration to blog about anything. And now I’m back, still sans inspiration, but I’m determined to update my online world!

As I mentioned, work has been crazy – and it’s bound to get even crazier in the next few days. After the car crash a couple of weeks ago, I’ve been back to Tagum a few times for work. It was another learning experience for me to be doing the rounds with the bosses. Plus I got to acquaint myself with the yummyness that is Miko’s Brew’s Spare Ribs! (Food blog coming up in the next few entries!) I was also able to bond a little with the bosses on the trip back to Davao so yay. A lot less awkwardness when I’m around them now.

And yes, while I had a really tight schedule for work during the day, my nights had been spent being all over the city with my crazy friends. I tried my first coitus, I had my first orgasm, I went to a gay bar, I ate my first (and last!) rabbit dish ever, and a lot of other activities.  BTW, the first two (coitus and orgasm) are wholesome. They are cocktail drinks!

So yeah. I love my life!

The Boyfriend Jeans

I recently discovered that my E63 has a self-timer and a sequence shot options! I went crazy today and this is the result.

GUHHHH. Why do I like posing with my hands in my front pockets?!?! So action star-ish of me!

Feeling model! Pose ng pose!

So anyway, I finally improvised my wardrobe to come up with my own version of “boyfriend jeans”. I just folded and folded (and folded) my uber long straigh-cut baggy LEVIS STRAUSS jeans and voila! NEW LOOK! I didn’t even have to go shopping anymore! YIPEE!

In my photo with I-don’t-know-who-he-is (from a year ago), I was wearing the same jeans, but it looks different, yes? Also, it was genius of me to pair it with my wedges so I look taller. I loves it!

So anyway, enough vanity for today.

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Mentors

These past few nights had been a super bonding moment with my former professors in college.

From L-R: Telai, Mrs. Marte, Ma’am Michelle, Ma’am JM, and Sir Anton.

It was great hanging out with my mentors. I’ve already mentioned in previous posts how much I’ve learned from being part of the panelist from a few classes of Mrs Marte and Sir Anton.

Looking back, one of my favorite classes in college was Mrs. Marte’s. Despite the everyday quizzes and seemingly unforgivable nature of our prof, I really learned a lot from her. I love how she requires no less than Magis from her students. In the end, my paper in Service Marketing/TQM was one of my proudest output ever. My friend Charlene can attest to that because it was her, Leonard and I who really spent sleepless nights over that paper. Too bad I only had classes with Ma’am Lyn on my last semester in college. And I wish she made us do what she requires of her classes now!

Ma’am Michelle, I’ve only known her last Tuesday. It turns out she’s a prof of my brother for a management subject. Small world.

One of the two professors who were with us in almost our whole college life was Ma’am JM. She was my professor in 3 finance subjects, for 3 consecutive semesters since starting on our second year. I don’t know what it was with our class but for those 3 semesters, Ma’am JM cried in our class 3 times, and walked out 3 times! But we love her anyway! We had so much fun in her classes!

And of course, my most fabulous professor ever is Mr. Anthony Aguelo, or better known as BEBE GANDANGREYNA! Yes everyone, he’s gay and proud of it! I got my highest grade ever from his classes. For two semesters, his classes were like an extension of our practicum activities. Two major events, music videos, promotional plans, and other nitty-gritty activities and voila! LOVE LOVE LOVE.

Often, I wonder why I have always had a close relationship with my teachers. I guess I used to suck up to them from time to time, but who doesn’t right? I mean, I still talk a lot with my former 4th year High School moderator, I chat with my 3rd year High School moderator, and I still talk with a few other teachers I had from high school. Oh well. It’s the charms. ROFLMAO. But seriously, I never really thought about it before but now, I think I can see teaching in my future. OH THE HORROR FOR STUDENTS!

From the activities these past few nights, Ma’am Marte whispered to me how the groups asked if I could be booted out of the panelist because I was too strict. I guess I was really “walang patawad” when it comes to my criticisms, but what was I supposed to do? Besides, they were meant to be constructive. However, as I personally know most of the people I criticize, it’s really so awkward for me, and I guess, for them. Actually, whenever I give criticisms, I think of what I could still do if I were in their group, and most importantly, I take points from what the other teachers were discussing outside the “huddle” with each group after every activity. OH WHAT AM I TALKING ABOUT BEING DEFENSIVE AND ALL?!?! Haha. Whatever. I love what I’m doing! I learn from the expert (ehem, Mrs. Marte, ehem)! HAHAHA. KEEP THEM COMING!

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Lady Gaga + Glee

I’m obviously a self-confessed GLEEK. Found this mash up for Lady Gaga and Glee in YouTube. Bad Romance it is! LOVES IT!

 

…you’re welcome!

 

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Laugh Trip Ad

I was browsing through some lyrics for 2ne1’s new song when an ad caught my eye…

BEHOLD:

For some reasons, I laughed so hard when I saw this. THE GIRL’S FACE = WINNER!!!!!!! Is that meant to seduce or something?! BWAHAHAHA. Seriously. UNEXPLAINABLE. HAHAHAHAH

JUST SHARING ANOTHER WTH ROFLMAO MOMENT. hahahahaha

 

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Please Explain This To Me Right Now

There’s a new hobby in town right now… and it is BEDAZZLING. But it’s not just your ordinary football bedazzling aka The Rock’s movie Game Plan. NO. This is different… QUITE DIFFERENT. Guess where the bedazzling is happening… guess… guess… guess… one last chance… guess… have you guessed where already? Ok… here it is… the answer is… the bedazzling is happening in… YOUR VAJAYJAY!!!! oh wait! did I just say VAJAYJAY?! YES! I JUST DID! GREAT BALLS OF FIRE. And following the name-merging trend/fad aka Jeggings, Skort, etc, this HIGHLY DISTURBING activity is called: *tentenenen* VAJAZZLE!!!!!! How creative, no? Think BEDAZZLE + VAGINA. NOTTTTT!

Apparently, Jennifer Love Hewitt do it all the time to make her feel better about her privates. I MEAN. WHAT THE HECK. And yes. People actually go to spas like Completely Bare in New York to get VAJAZZLED. It’s not just Jennifer Love. WTF

Here’s a quote from her interview in Lopez Tonight:

After a breakup, a friend of mine Swarovski crystalled my, um, precious lady. It shined like a disco ball.

That said, I’d like to quote our friends from The Luxury Spot on as-shiny-as-disco-balls-vajayjay: “Because that’s exactly what I want for my lady business. To blind whoever it is looking at my lady parts.” WTF WTF WTF.

As a proof that this bizarre vajazzling really happens, check out these photos:

For my sake, I hope you are as disturbed as I am upon this horrific phenomena. SERIOUSLY PEOPLE. I THOUGHT ALL ALONG THAT BEDAZZLING IS A WHOLE SOME ACTIVITY FOR KIDS. I AM COMPLETELY DISTURBED UPON THESE TURN OF EVENTS.

But she (the lady who got her vajayjay bedazzled in the photos) looks completely (AND RIDICULOUSLY) happy. God bless her. But for the love of God please spare me all these horrific fads people are turning to these days. THEY ARE RIDICULOUS. RIDICULOUS!

Read the full article on VAJAZZLING HERE.

 

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Random: My Skin Care Regimen

Lately, a lot of people had noticed that my skin is getting clearer. Zits do sprout from time to time, they grow really big and hideous and stay a long time – but that’s another story. Anyway, there’s one right one beside my right eye. It’s been there for a while now.

Here’s me with a bare face tonight.

It’s really nothing though. I don’t have the best skin in the world, but I manage. So, how do I do it? Allow me to share my beauty regimen or whatever you call it.

I try to get as much sleep as I can, and I try to avoid being exposed to the sun as much as I can despite the nature of my work.

For my daily routine, I swear by Pond’s. I’ve been using it since high school. I originally used the ordinary facial scrubs (I won’t get technical! LOL) but they really didn’t work for me, but the whitening stuffs that Unilever launched had been God-sent.

Love your own!

I use the Pond’s White Beauty products daily – once in the morning, and once at night. The FLAWLESS WHITE line is much better though. However, it’s also more expensive so I’m going to stick with the cheaper buys. I wash with the facial foam for cleansing. And then afterwards, I apply the toner (using cotton), to minimize my ginormous pores. And then I apply the lightening cream. It’s not a moisturizer though. We don’t have it for Pond’s. I’m still scouting for a good moisturizer.  

Once a week, usually on Sundays, I exfoliate to get rid of dead skin cells. I’ve been using St. Ives Invigorating Apricot Scrub since high school as well. They released a new packaging for it recently, and it smells so much better than before. I love it! Unlike my usually rushed daily routine, I take time when I’m exfoliating. I wash with warm water to open up my pores, and then I scrub and scrub and scrub (including my neck area!) and I even pop some of my zits (oops. bad habit! do not emulate!). After I’m satisfied with my scrubbing, I wash again with warm water, and then use cold water for final rinsing to close my pores.

When I go out, I use *drum rolls* BB CREAM!!! I swear I love using it! Unlike the usual cakey and heavy foundation, these are very light and very easy to apply! For daily use, I use Maybelline’s Clear Smooth Minerals BB Cream. Why? Because it’s cheap! Only Php299 for an 18ml tube. Unfortunately, they only have one shade and one size for all. The shade is way lighter than my skin tone so I kinda use it as a concealer as well. /teehee/ But anyway, I still love it. It offers medium coverage, (and SPF!) so it’s perfect for work! For special occasions though, I use SKIN FOOD’S ALOE SUN BB CREAM. It’s a bit expensive, about Php1,300 for 50g, so I only use it from time to time. It’s “heavier” compared to Maybelline’s but the shade and coverage is AWESOME! It also lasts longer, and personally, I like using it better. Just a little trivia about BB Cream: originating in Korea, it’s especially made for Asian skin. It’s a kind of tinted moisturizer, and it offers UV protection and blemish correction!

Ysa and I at the office last Monday.

So yay! There you have it! Another useless random post from Telai! Hopefully, you got something from this!

If you have any skin care tips that you want us to know, share it!

 

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Please Fly Me To Manila

These past few weeks, I’ve been busy communicating with my colleagues in the American Chamber of Commerce in the Philippines (AmCham) regarding the upcoming Business Orientation Program (BOP) 2010. I was part of batch 6 from BOP 2008.

All alumni were invited to the launch last January 20. A couple of my batchmates, Conrad and Mary Love, were there. I think Ken was there as well, but I couldn’t find a photo.

When Mary Love posted the photos during the launch, the rest of my batchmates kept talking about attending either the cocktails or the awards dinner. I’m so jealous! I want to go there on the 17th for the cocktails but I can’t since I don’t have any money for the tickets! I wish the committee would sponsor for the alumni as well, yes? That would be swell! And although I’ll be in Manila on the 22nd, I’ll only stay there for a couple of hours and I probably won’t even get out of the airport. HURHUR. So yeah, the 17 is going to be my best chance. Any generous souls out there who wants to sponsor my plane ticket? It’s only 4,600php round trip! *pretty please*

And so, while I sit and wait for someone to save me from my miseries, I’m further frustrating myself by viewing photos from 2 years ago during my own time at the BOP.

  

How’s that for torture? These were the photos from our batch that they posted for the exhibit during the launch. See the 4th photo clockwise? That’s me and my group with our GOLD MEDALS after winning the Best Team Presentation for the business plan competition!

I miss AmCham! I miss the BOP! I want to go to Manila! Please fly me to Manila on the 17th!